my feeling for now is really sad. damn damn sad. only bestie knows why :) thanks for those who tried to cheer me up. thanks dear dear for listening to me. THANKS :)

today went cwp to see s.h.e. supposedly meet 11 but all didnt reply me so i went to sleep. 11+ woke up and see none of them reply me yet. then cher and song texted me. tot they reach le so i jumped out from bed and replied them. called elf, malek and william. and all of them still slping. malek didnt pick up. then we met 1245 instead. song reached first followed by me. skipped all the details. then we went starbuck study till 7+. van van came to find us after her achery comp. her arm was injured man. get well soon dear :) went food court makan with cher and vanvan while jason william and angus went off to yishun to cut their hair. chem haven study die. :( im so no mood to study anything. and work tomorrow. :((((

i shouldnt have made myself to fall deeply. i shouldnt have think so much that i really like you now. whenever i saw u chatting with them, it brings me back to the past. seeing so many topics that u have with them and non with me really very sucky. i mean nothing to u. but u mean everything to me. maybe is just a crush like what they said, maybe i should not carry on and should not pin too much hope. i should stop myself to sms to chat with you. you make me forget past and yet i have to forget you now. i hate to be in the same group as you. i hate to be in same class as you. i hate to know you for the begining. i hate my life now! first sem in poly is like this, thought second sem will be better but im wrong. how i wish and hope i never ever know you be4.