27.11.09

ystd chatting with irene till 2+. kena dad scolded said what "wth u doing? study till so late, so hardworking? want 谈亲说爱 go outside chat la. f*** la, u tot u my dad SO? DAMN!

after ystd, realised that it is so damn easy to say "we are friends forever, we are a group"! but is so damn difficult to do so. true friends wont comment each other's look behind that person. and when said one person should go talk to that person abt her att all, when things happened, u all pushed the blame on the one who talk to her.
true friends wont push blame when things happen.

even if he dont belong to our "group", u all can actually dont like this treat him. imagine u with a "group", and when they like discuss abt outings in front of u, yet give eye signal among themselves, trying their best not to let u go, what will u feel? the feeling sure wont be good.

im kind of sad when i read irene's post that time saying that on that day onwards, there will be no more FBFG, and said "i dont care whether u leaving the grp or anyone else". it just shows that FBFG is not that strong and never will be strong. u all said friends to me is come and go. just be it.
we have different thinking, different mindset can never clique well tgt.

both of u keep comment other pple is flirt etc. but have u all think abt urselves? one have gf, another one have person that u like. yet so close with one another. is like pot calling the kettle back.

actually. even if we all are tgt, the rest of us are just invisible. u 4 have ur "inside jokes" which we will never know even if we ask many many times cause is inside jokes among urselves. jus be it. which we never ever get into the "world" which only belongs to all of u cause we will never know what u all are talking about.u keep suddenly emo for no reason. and will show ur attitude as and when u like. they might not mind abt it. u all want others to follow ur way. but have u all think of others' feelings be it bad mouthing behind pple's back etc.
im disappointed when im not been added into the mass convo among my "friends". 2 always think that things must follow their ways, and never think of others' feelings, another one just follow "her" and the last one everything also "anything".

whatever it is! im not siding anyone. just wanna say out what i felt. im still thinking of how to balance both sides in order not to lose any friends. but i think i dont have think about it le ba.